Basketball is my life

2010-11-26T23:24:00.001+08:00

11.23pm now. I'm walking home. Miss you like crazy baby. Imma take comfort in the fact that we're looking at the same night sky. 17 days babe. Sucks that I can't even text you. At least when you were at local field camp I could just text you endlessly knowing you'll see it at the end of 8days. Now even if I text you, you'll prolly only see it at the end of 3 weeks. I miss you. Remember last year at this time we were dating? 17 more days to our one year anniversary, cause you're coming back in 17 days. I've never missed anyone so much before. You're the first boy bb, and hopefully the last. Love you.

2010-11-25T23:09:00.001+08:00

I don't think you have any idea how happy I am now that I've heard your voice. I feel so settled, so safe and ready to just sleep. You're more than a thousand miles away, and I'm even more in love with you than ever. Good night sweetheart. When we wake up, it'll be 17 more days.

I'll doze off safe and soundly, but I'll miss your arms around me.

2010-11-24T23:14:00.001+08:00

It's been exactly 24 hours since the last time I saw you, the last time you held my hand, the last time you pulled me into your arms, and the last time you kissed my forehead. Now I just have another 732 hours more before I can have all that again. You have no idea how much I miss you. I love you baby.

Always,
Abby

From Bithday Boy!!

2010-11-22T10:40:00.002+08:00

HI DARLING!!! HOPE YOU GET TO SEE THIS WHEN IM AWAY FOR 3 WEEKS TO TAIWAN!!!!

Today is a MONDAY!!! WHY AM I STILL HERE??? haha. Going to book in later tonight before 2345 la. ZZZ......

Tml night im going to fly to Taiwan already. Its gonna be 4 hrs ride and will be landing there in the morning. Then start to have hell again.. sigh.. but nvm. These are all side tracks. Below are the main jeezz.. (I bet you are rolling your eyes xinfinity alr.. hehe.)

For the past 4 days, baby you had been celebrating my birthday for me. I have to say this year's celebration is really one of the best celebration i ever had. Another best celebration when I'm at pri 4? Cuz my parent actually did a small party in my house and invited my friends and cousins without me knowing it. Hehe. dont laugh at me. It meant something to me ar..... !! =)

Sweetie, the celebration on Friday was FULL OF SURPRISES. It was really planned so well that i never even expect anything from it. I thought you were really falling sick. The moment i walked down the stairs, i saw my cake - 1 surprise. While i walked to the dining area and saw candlelight, dishes on the table that look so yummy - 2 surprise. And the setting was so nice that i even clapped the moment i saw all that baby. Ok, then your home-cooked Shepherd's pie that you had not made for anybody else - 3 surprise. Lastly, my GIFT!!!!!! - 4 surprise.

It must have taken you alot alot of time and effort to come out with all these baby. Especially my gift which you had been editing like forever, sacrificing your sleeping time. Even Sherperd's pie dont come easy. And you had to collaborate with your parents into doing this together. I was really damn happy and got nothing to say at that moment cuz I was too shocked and at the same time, still recovering from the waves of surprises that you had given me. Never had i felt so fortunate and lucky with anyone, plus I have you to celebrate my birthday in this way. How can i not love you??? MWAHHHS!!!!!

On Sat, you brought me to Orio Coffee (dont know how to spell.. hehe.) Although the main dishes wasn't as nice as we expected it to be, but the mocha milkshake was nice. And the ambiance was nice tooo.

On Sun, you followed me with my parents to Ah Yi's seafood resturant to have lunch celebration. Then we went to dine at Tony Roma's resturant! It was fun sharing 4 different flavour of ribs with you cuz we both got alot of comments on the ribs!!!! haha. =)

And today you have to take a half day off from your work so as to spend more time with me again. Although my birthday haven come yet, but i guess this string of advanced celebrations made it even more worthwhile!

Baby you got no idea how thankful i am to have you as my girlfriend yknw? I know all these doesnt come easy. Just so you know that im very grateful and im grabbing hold onto this as tightly as i can. Sometimes, we could have some bickering and all, but end of the day, i still love you from the bottom of my heart. I really hope that our relationship can stay strong and can weather alot of toughness that will be coming on its way.

And that shall be part of my birthday wishes. I love you sweetheart, always. =)

P/S: I will be leaving soon darling. Hope you can take care of yourself and do not fall sick ok? Drink enough of water and sleep tight at night. Dont catch cold cuz end of year always raining. Think of me while you can but sometimes can take a break la. If not i will be very tired from running in your mind the whole day leh. Get it? hehe. Lastly, dream of me also! Cuz most likely i will be meeting you in our dreams!!! Really love you sweetie pie. See you soon. And the day i'll be back and seeing each other, will be our 1 year anniversary!!! Looking forward to that man!!!! Well. I gtg baby. Take care! Stay strong for me!! muackzzzzzzzz!!! I LOVE YOU!!!! X10000000000000!!!!

2010-09-26T17:37:00.001+08:00

All that I'm after, is a life full of laughter, as long as I'm laughing with you :)

(why they resize my picture until so weird, and the resolution became so poor!! :()

2010-09-21T17:24:00.001+08:00

When I see you face, there's not a thing that I would change, cause you're amazing just the way you are. And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for awhile ♥

2010-09-09T15:54:00.001+08:00

Omg I just read ALL your blog posts hahaha like from the very first one onwards. Because I was having cramps and hence was practically immobile plus couldn't sleep cause too painful then I read read read (I didn't come here with the intention of reading all it just happened) read read till now my cramps are gone!! Hahahah it was a good distraction I think! And you have so little posts so can finish reading all in like 45mins?!

Omg you've grown so much over the past one year plus, since you started blogging here! Awwww I'm so prouda you bunny. And you're sooooooooo cute now (not that you weren't cute last time, you were! But you've grown to become so much cuterrrrrr hehe melts) and I really have to say.. your grammar vocabulary and language have become simply outstanding!! Hahhaha I'm so amused by all your blog posts, can't believe I even read all! Highly entertaining plz why are you so cute srsly?

Haha k we've reached the halfway mark, 4 more days till you leave the jungle babe, 5 more to seeing you! Can't w8 xinfinity

And yay I'm not gonna study today I'm gonna give myself a one day break, ok gonna sleep now jungle boy bye! Love love love you :)

Been far away for far too long

2010-09-08T20:46:00.001+08:00

Okay so, this is the third day we've gone completely without any communication. 5 more to go. I miss you bb, but imma wait patiently for you :) I really hope you're doing okay, I love you sweetheart come back quick plz miss you ttm faintzzz :( hugs k byebye

2010-09-07T18:28:00.001+08:00

Hi bunz. I miss you like hell srsly. Can you come out of the jungle now? Omg there's still 6 more days!! Ugh. And I have 3 papers left. Time is taking forever to pass this week sigh :( I wonder what you're doing now, hope you're doing fine! And just now I was thinking, sianz your POP and block leave are during my internship period, and I can't take leave! Sigh sad ttm xinfinity plz sighhhhhhh sigh sighhhhhhhhhhh :'( k it's okay we'll work something out like we always do :( haha very sad. I think this one month plus the time we've spent tgt is less than the tome we used to spend in one week, like maybe before all these haha oh well. Okay gotta go eat dinner then study again. Miss you much!! I pray this week passes more quickly :( I love you bb, can't wait to see you next week. Or just talk to you really. I think I'd be contented with just talking to you or texting you now. Haha with zero communication at all, I'd definitely be contented with just that. K luvvvvvvv you cutie pie ♥♥♥

2010-08-17T12:06:00.005+08:00

HI BUNNY! omg i HAVE TO take a break from watching the show so i can stop hyperventilating and show you my new boyfriend................

are you ready?? okay, say hi to..

DAMON SALVATORE!!!

FAINTSSSSSSSSSS hehe so hansumxzxzzz omg can't take it! hahaha who ask you to help me download the episodes! teehee ok la hurry come out plz, the wait izzzzz killing me! mwahhhhh luvvv you.
k gonna go back to my new boyfriend, and later i think imma re-watch gossip girl to look at my other boyfriend (i wish!!) chace crawford. whom in my opinion, largely resembles ian somerhalder aka DAMON SALVATOREEEE hahahha k i hope no one but you sees this haha. love you favourite boy, see you in 3 :)

For my darling

2010-08-14T11:19:00.004+08:00

Hi love! Its saturday today and i know you are coming back tomorrow! but I scare you wont be able to talk to me due to the flight and all that. But im here telling you that i'll take care of myself, miss you all the time and most importantly, love you always!

I hope you had enjoyed your trip, except for the unable to contact you part. Dont know shld i use my international call tonight? I think i shld try? If not i bought it also no use abit wasted right? hehe.

And baby im sorry. I couldn't help you activate your pay as roam cause they just wont let me help you activate even i said i got your mum IC's. Zzz. And their operation sucks hard man. I've been on hold for 30 mins to get through their line and in the end, i cant get what i wanted. Sigh. It really sucks when i cant do anything for you. sian ttm.

Erm wondering what you are doing now. Maybe shopping with your parent? or eating nice food? hmm whatever it is, you know there is someone missing you always k. The weather today is so cooling. And if you were here with me, that would be perfect. =) We could go out, food hunting or do whatever we want right? haha.

Please remember to come back k? If not im gonna be very sad. =(( I really miss you like mad already. Alright. I gotta go eat my lunch already baby. Hope you are taking care of yourself and by then, your rashes on your hand will be gone babe. See you in 6 more days! Mwaahhhhhhhhh!!! Time pass faster please!

P.S. Thank you darling for loving me. I love you too. =)

2010-08-10T16:46:00.002+08:00

hi bunny :) i'm leaving for korea in a couple of hours, and you're in camp and i haven't spoken to you today yet. i miss you like hell already, and i saw you yesterday! i had so much fun with you, and i was so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy xinfinity to have you back with me, even though it was just for awhile. i can't wait for the next time i'll see you, which is in 11 days from now. idk if you're booking out this weekend, but if you are, relax and have fun and take good care of yourself k? by then, i hope that your cough would've already gone away completely. thank you for everything baby. i know you're trying your best to make this work as much as i am. i really love you alot okay? always, hopefully :)

i hope you didn't have too tiring a week! i know i'm gonna miss talking to you the next few days, even though we don't really get to talk much anymore in the first place. but aside from not seeing you or barely talking to you on weekdays, i realized that nothing has changed much. when you're back by my side it's like we just automatically pick up from where we last left off.

i've never been so in love before haha. i love you, we'll make this work babe :)

gonna get you lots of stuff from seoulllllllllllll! love you so much bb mwahhhhhhhh see you soon time plz pass more quickly thx!

This is Abby, again.

2010-08-02T14:07:00.006+08:00

Just know that you're not in this thing alone, there's always a place in me that you can call home. Whenever you feel like we're growing apart, we'll take it back to the start. Anything that's worth having, is sure enough worth fighting for. Quitting's out of the question, when it gets tough, gotta fight some more.

Hi sweetheart, time flies doesn't it? Army stole you from me already sigh. Now look back, at the past 7.5 months, did you ever think we'd be where we are now, feeling the way we do now, as strong as we are now? No? Me neither.

I miss you like crazy srsly, I'm not used to this at all, after how close we've been and how we are in constant communication, and how I used to call you or see you anytime I wanted. It's so vastly, drastically and completely different from how we were just last week, or even just 4 days ago. But I just wanna let you know that I don't frickin care how tough it's gonna be, I love you enough to go through it with you. After all, love isn't measured by good times or by easy times, it's measured by the toughest of times. So how can I say I really truly love you with all my heart if I can't even go through this with you right bunny?

You don't know how much I love you qtpie ♥ but you'll find out soon :)

See you in 6 days, feels like forever from today, but you're worth the wait.

2010-07-23T00:30:00.003+08:00

Not ready to let go
Cause then i'd never know
That i could be missing
Im missing way too much
So when i do give up what i've been wishing for.

I shot for the sky
Im stuck on the ground
So why do i try, i know im going to fall down
I thought i could fly, but why did i drown
Never know why its coming down, down, down.

2010-07-18T13:58:00.000+08:00

THANKS BABY FOR YOUR ONITSUKA TIGER!!!

Flyers day

2010-07-01T23:19:00.004+08:00

Thanks hon for the previous 2 posts. Especially your fantabulously long awesome first post. =)

So you have been waiting for my response?? haha im sorry. I didn't have the habit to check up my blog until i feel like blogging. But now i have. =) I saw the post last night and it slipped out my mind to bring it up to you today. And anyway, i had a great day today. Including the waiting for you part la. It was nothing much actually. Your projects are more important tooo. I understand.

Truly I had never felt this much for a person before and i really love you very much. <3

Anything worth having, is sure enough worth fighting for.

2010-07-01T22:43:00.003+08:00

hi loverboy :)

i'm posting here again cause i just needa ask............... WHY HAVEN'T YOU CHECKED YOUR BLOG YET, IT'S BEEN A WEEK AND YOU STILL HAVEN'T READ THE POST I POSTED BEFORE THIS ONE!!!!!!! hahah i thought you'd see it that's why i didn't tell you, i kept waiting and waiting and waiting for you to see it on your own but you still haven't!!!! faintzzzzzzzzz anyway today was awesome you are so awesomeeeeeee hehe love you so much bb!! okie imma tell you about this post now because i got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around, my faith in you was fading, when you met me on the outskirts of town................. hahahah okok thank you for waiting for me to finish my proj in school today!! you are the bestttttt rock on kk teehee ok gotta go do project sianzzz can't wait for tmrw yay :) and shit JULY IS HERE, you're going to enlist soon! sighhhh but it's gonna be okay don't worry! haha ok sorry i'm so bored now i just removed my nail polish i gotta go for manicure again soonz! ok la actually not bored, i'm supposed to be doing my projectssss, so many deadlines very stressed naoooo can you tell? thanks for letting me use this space, and whoever that's reading, thanks for reading this pointless post are you feeling cheated now? that you read all the way till here and there wasn't really a point i was even trying to get at from the start all the way till the end? hehe too bad la who asked you to bother reading the whole thing? haha luvvv you cutie pie kthxbye

2010-06-24T21:41:00.005+08:00

Hi. This is Abby, girlfriend of this adorable blog owner. I have no idea who reads or watches this space, but it doesn't really matter anyway.

So anyway, I was reading the archives, ever since you knew me which was hmmmm october/ november till now? And I've realized so many things. First of all, you've changed in many ways. I'm not saying that I changed you, don't get me wrong, but you've changed all the same. The way you talk, the way you think, the whole thought process, the grammar, vocabulary and language (hehe). Did I really make you become a man before army was given a chance to do its job, sweetheart? hahahaha alright, people who don't have a clue about me must think I'm gloating about how greatly I've impacted your life (hahaha) but I really am not. You've changed my life in many more ways than I ever changed yours.

When you met me, the complications in my life just started. I got out of a two and a half year relationship that my world revolved around, and even though I wasn't a complete mess, but I was messed up nonetheless. The last thing I wanted was to be in another relationship, and I knew I'd never fall for anyone else, because I don't fall for people easily, you know I build my defenses up very well, and that I do a splendid job at keeping them up. But then you came along and you changed everything and I pushed you away when I realised I was starting to cave in and fall for you because forcing myself not to fall for you and fighting my heart every single day was getting harder and harder the more time I spent with you and the more you fought for me, the more you fought to break my strong and hard exterior down.

You're different, you know that? You always say I'm different, different from any other girl you've ever met. But you yourself are a different kind of boy altogether, impossible to find. Sometimes I may get frustrated and I tell you that you don't have a clue how to handle me, but I do know for a fact that you know me. And it's not easy to know me hahahah I think a lot and I think in a completely way from you (I know it's really hard for you sometimes, sorry pumpkin luvvv you).

Yeah, we had "bad times", or whatever people want to call it. It was the way it was supposed to be, I never meant to come with all these complications, I never meant to carry all these things along with me into this relationship but you knew it was already going to be like that, I told you countless times before we got together, and even at the moment that you asked me to be with you, before I gave you an answer. Yeah, I may have needed more time. Yes, maybe I should've asked you to give me more time, to ask you to wait for me to figure everything out and sort everything out. Maybe I needed to be alone for a longer time than was given to me, maybe I met you too early, maybe if I met you later than I did it would have been perfect. Maybe so many things happened everyday that were tough for me, maybe the situation I was placed in every single day made it tough for our relationship, maybe it required endless trust in me on your part, maybe I hurt you at times, maybe I got tired at times fighting to do the right thing every single day even though it was hard.

Yeah, there were stuff we went through that people barely had to go through in the first few months of their relationships, or perhaps even for the whole entire length of their relationships. Yeah, maybe it was tiring, maybe people judged me, saw it as me complicating your life or me putting you through hell, me being not worth it, not worth what you're going through.

But I don't give a shit what anyone else thinks, I stopped giving a shit from the moment my heart broke 8 or 9 months ago. All I knew was that you wanted me, you wanted to be with me even when I pushed you away, even when I wanted you to take the easy way out. I am not going to deny that I would have never did what you did for me, for you or anyone else. I would have never been able to take it from the start. But like you said, we're different.

And you know what? If I had to do it all over again, I would. I'd do it the exact same way. Because I have never regretted this relationship, I have never regretted choosing to be with you. And what we went through? Only helped me to see how much you loved me, how you saw me, and how special and different you were from any other boy. If we didn't go through what we went through, it probably wouldn't be the exact way it is now. Maybe it'd be better, maybe it'd be worse, who knows? But fact is, it would have never been the EXACT way that it is now, and I wouldn't trade this for anything right now. No other human being on the face of this earth besides you and me will ever understand it fully, people can try to understand, but no one will truly be able to. This is one of those things you have to go through yourself before completely understanding it and knowing what it means.

So, if you haven't gone through it, you have no clue how it is like, even if you think you're smart and can see beyond everything and have wonderful perception skills, the hard fact is that you really don't know shit, so until you've been through it yourself, then let me know I'd be happy to listen. (this is to everyone who has judged me being with this cutie pie, judged my life and my relationship, tyvm :) )

Life's tough sometimes, and it's never fair. The past 6-9 months have been hell for me in aspects not involving you. But guess what? You made it completely worthwhile. Every single time I gave you a chance to walk away, you never did. Every single time I practically forced you to walk away, you never ever did. You fought to stay, you fought for me. And now you've got me. This relationship was never easy. Life is never easy at times. But if it was always easy, would it even be worth it?

I don't believe in forever, I stopped believing in forever a long time ago. I mean like, how can anyone be 100% sure of anything right? Nothing in this life is completely predictable, unexpected things happen all the time, unexpected turn of events occur all the time. I've been through enough, relationship-wise, to learn that, to realize that. So why make promises we never know for sure if we can keep right? Why just base promises on what we feel at that moment itself, when years down the road we might not feel the same? Promises mean a lot to me, and the agenda and reasoning behind keeping them is also important and pressing to me. Just because we think we are 100% certain about something, just because we think we can predict the future and we think we can control the outcome of the situation, doesn't mean that it is going to happen.

The ugly truth is that life is a bitch sometimes, it smacks you hard in the face when you least expect it. But the important thing is to realize that every single time you fall hard on your face, there is a reason. Yeah, whoever who said that EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON was completely correct. And I believe that everything happens for a reason. "People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." Awesome shizzzz yaaa?

So I love you. Not forever, because nobody can ever promise you that. But I hope it'll be Always, for us. You know what I mean better than anyone else, baby.

What's coming up next is army, and the prospect of me going overseas to study. I have no idea what will happen then, I have no idea what it is going to be like, but I'll try my hardest to make it all worth it. I want you to know that whatever happens, I'll always be thankful to have met you, and I would do it all over again if I had the chance.

Thank you for the past six and a half months, I apologize for everything you went through (although you did so willingly, teeheehee hehehehehe) for me. You are one hell of a boyfriend and I'm a lucky girl yay :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

muackxzxzxzzzzzz luvvvvvv you so much bb I hope Always will stand true for us :)

(okie this is such a long post, and it sounds so formal idk why!! maybe i haven't blogged in too long alr, so i formalized the whole process! hehe)

2010-06-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

hi love, you are the absolute best thing that has happened to me.

with all my heart,
abby

Words of appreciation

2010-06-21T18:44:00.002+08:00

First of all, i would like to say thank you. Thank you my girlfriend who meticulously did an album of our memories ever since the day i met her for our 6th month of being together.

Yes.. Time is going by at the speed of light. Very soon later, im going to enlist. I have so much to say, so much to tell. But all in all, you are the only one that im always talking about.

Being with you for the past 6 months, i had learnt alot of things too. Things that didn't matter to me once before, now do. I think of things in so many different ways now and most of all, im thankful cause it makes me feel that i grew older and feel more real towards everything - i feel more like a "man" now. *dont laugh/roll eyes please. =)

Oh plus im verbally more expressive too, isn't it??

During this period of time, no matter how hard the situation may have been, we braved through it together. In the process, you and me had learnt of the important aspects of each other's characters, understood it and finally accepted it. In other words, we grew closer and understood each other more.

When i said you are special, im referring to how you think and how you express yourself. This might not be the first time you are hearing it from someone's mouth, but i can tell you not much girls think and speak like you babe. So, this really makes you special. As time goes by, you are obviously more and more special to me. It would be weird if you aren't. For all you know, you have already stepped into my life and played a great part in it. I like that.

Last but not least, what makes me feel that this album is so special to me is that it recounts the past 6 months-half a year. Still scares me to realise the number of months that have passed by so quickly. But then again, its the happy times that passed so quickly isn't it?

So once again, im very grateful and thankful for you for being my girlfriend and using your hardwork to write ALL those feelings out into words. Im truly touched. It may seem like nothing much to you, but you know me. I amplifiy good stuff 10 times bigger than bad stuff. I will take all this into my heart. I hope I love you, always sweetie.

The Sands Of Time

2010-06-08T10:54:00.001+08:00

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can do
To fight with time and space 'cause I'm still stuck in the moment with you..

I felt regretful for not giving you enough time and i still thought it was perfect. If i could turn back time now, i would do whatever it takes, to make it right again. But it is too late now.. Im sorry babe. I was naive. It was me living in my own world then. If it wasn't for these, you probably weren't have to deal with what you did in the past 6 months.

I just wanna apologise to you babe..

Sigh.. these are all just me and my thoughts.

2010-06-04T00:24:00.000+08:00

I wish i could have know you earlier, love.

2010-06-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

I cant wait to spend this 2 weeks of holidays with you. I hope it will be different from the previous one and we'll gonna have alot of fun. Plus all the remaining time that i have before NS. Thank you darling. You're the BEST! =)))

Our checklist will be full of ticks!!!!

Falling hard

2010-05-27T00:56:00.003+08:00

I never knew i would fall this hard for a girl.

After all this time, I was amazed that how did i ever go through those stuff by myself?? Recalling those times that were bad, i could just be this close to give up and ended all. But i didn't. I chose to believe my heart. And i did make the right choice. Now my heart is filled with you and no one else can ever replace that easily. The reason why I'm posting on my blog is because i wanna say it out loud.

Almost half a year has passed, ever since i know you. I can say that you are the only person i had ever loved the most and of course, still loving. You have no idea that the way you look at me with your big innocent eyes at times, the way you try to wrap me with your arms from behind when we were standing at the escalator and the way you always grapple me with your arm around my neck while walking, never fail to make me feel I'm a very fortunate guy.

And now, with all your heart, you are more certain and i truly believe that you are in love with me. Not that i'd doubted it before anyway, but now situation is different. I am very touched to hear that you are willing to wait - go through my NS with me. That's enough. We both grew to know that life is unpredictable and whats go up, can come down also. Nothing is guarantee. For now, its really enough. I never expected more than this. Thank you babe and I LOVE YOU!

P.s - As always, i hope that no matter what changes have come between us, our love can grow as strong as it is now and we'll be able to overcome it! Mwahhhhhh. Cross our fingers and hope! =)))

2010-05-14T01:04:00.002+08:00

Friday is your favourite day. I'm doing all these because of you babe. =)))

2010-05-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

Happy 5th months baby. I Love You.

2010-05-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

Long before i met you, I'd been a very bad guy. A guy that even me hated myself at that time. A guy that i never knew i would end up becoming. I was immature and rebellious. All i wanted to do was to do stuff that were wrong and numb myself. At least i thought it would make myself feel better. I simply just wanna screw up my life during that period of time.

Until one day, I finally start to think about how i shouldn't be doing all the bad stuff and put my focus back to studies and basketball. Slowly, I've changed. I stopped doing all the bad stuff and became a person that i was before i screwed up. I thought somehow i grew up from the hard way and became a better person.

Afterwards, i found you. Certainly, i never thought i would be so crazily in love with you. It had never crossed my mind that i would have open up myself to you that easily and let you know all my secrets the first day i went out with you. Since then, I'd come clean of what had happened before my life without you. I'd never want to hide from you or lie to you in any thing that happened. Its just that sometimes, it wasn't as clear.

I dont know how many people will be seeing this.. but i just wanna apologise.. I thought what i told you was enough but now, you were struggling with what i did in my past. It striked me that it wasn't enough and i could do nothing but to see you struggling it yourself everyday. Seriously, i felt damn useless sometimes. At times like this, i cant do anything but to see you pushing it aside from your mind and be okay. I suck.

You asked me whether are you different from others that i met in the past, at the overhead bridge last night. And my answer is Yes, you are. And im not afraid of other people knowing that as well. Apart from where we met, I only started to know you the first day that we went out. The way when you were talking to me on the first day, i thought you were already trying to push me away. But as we know each other further, i realised that you are just not that kind of person that put your guard down easily, you use that smarty brain of yours to think stuff before you say anything or act anything and you really care for whom you care for, which really attracts me to you alot. Of cuz there were more, but these are the important ones. By that time, i knew i wanted to be with you. I knew im not just ready for anyone, but you. You dont give yourself a chance to do wrong stuff. And being your boyfriend like that, Im fortunate.

And because of this, i know its harder for you to get over what i did in my past. It was all my past but doesn't mean you should accept it. Now, as much as i hated it, i would say that i am fine if you wanna leave. Everytime it appears in my mind to tell you, i just couldn't do it. I really scare that you will leave me. Its only a matter of time that you are gonna leave me if you couldn't accept it. And i hope that day never comes..

P.S to all : Above are all my thoughts that were meant for my girlfriend only.

To my girlfriend - Abby

2010-04-22T00:57:00.001+08:00

I love you baby. I really do. =)

2010-04-19T21:19:00.005+08:00

Did we really make a mistake for being together???

We met in a place where i least expected to be. We ended up liking each other where i least expected it to be. Was it really a delusion or am i just blinded by love??? I never thought i would put my real feelings into this.. but i did. I thought i was like before but there was something in you made me believed in this world, there's still something like love. You clearly showed me how you can truly love a person when indeed, you did. When i asked for you, i was confident with what i had. But situations just proved me wrong, time after time.

Nothing particular happened. Just felt need to say out something. You are different from many girls that i'd met. Seriously, I really have no idea why im so into you. At some point of time, i did hold myself back to remind myself again. I even hold myself from saying "i miss you", 3 simpler words than "i love you". It makes me wonder if you are thinking why i miss you so much even we met just recently.. Its weird for me to even think of that..

However, I just dont know why i always expected more nowadays. It was wrong for me. I told myself the day when im with you that i shouldn't be expecting, plus this situation is already there when i even got together with you, even more so i shldn't feel like that. At the beginning, i was passive to everything cuz i think you need more comfort. Not saying you are weak, i just think i should be more understanding and i really want you to be a happier person. But now, im becoming more like what i am. I dont know whether its good or bad but thats how i've changed.

There are alot of things i still haven do with you yet. And i always feel that time is running out.. Im not sure its because of my enlistment that make me feel this way or is it just a feeling to complete something together with you??? I know we are putting our main problems aside and be happy together. But it doesn't mean what we are having now are all in pretence. Its not a show. UGHHH!~ i dont know what im pointing on anymore. Just confused.

sigh just random thoughts that needed to say out.. nothing much.

2010-04-16T01:08:00.003+08:00

Letting you go is said easier than being done. So what I would be able to tell all my friends, including you, that i would let you go if you really wanted to. Cuz the truth is i will never be brave enough to make the decision to leave you. Im afraid of regretting it again. What if i regretted leaving you cuz you are now a great part of my life and i know i still love you?? I am not that kind that play with feelings, relationships and people. Once i've decided to step myself into this, there will be no turning back. This is how i am. I dont know what i should deserve but i know what i wanted. I did think of all sort of solutions but the only thing i figured out for the best of you is to leave you so that you can be happier. This is so contradicting and complicated. One moment i felt i dont want you to leave or me leaving you, the other, i felt that if i am able to leave you, you could be happier. and i know you felt the same. Sometimes im just wondering if im doing the right thing to stay cuz everytime things happened, its just not that simple. You gotta struggle your own feelings towards him and mine. It sucks ttm. This is also the reason why you cant assured me with securities and love me more.

And because of this, i knew i've changed. I always wanted to you feel something more towards me. Not him. I guess im just jealous. Im just a normal person that felt jealous when they know their gf is feeling something towards their ex. Im no different. How am i suppose to make the decision without feeling anything towards you???

Can someone really tell me what to do???

2010-04-04T00:24:00.003+08:00

Its been more than 1 week since i came back from that boring trip to Hai Yai with my family. Now its my baby's turn to go Taiwan for abt a week. Flying tml. Hmm.. Gonna miss her??? =(((
We had been spending time together and nothing much happened except for things had became better after my 4 days trip.

During this week, I felt that things became normal again. Is like back to where we started off. Im not sure how much longer it will last but at least i know that we are both trying out stuff. Stuff that makes us either closer or apart. (Our own problems and differences). Yes there are still certain feelings that my gf needs time to figure out, but i'd decided to stay no matter how she feels. I would not say that all our uncertainties and insecurities are gone but i would say that as long as 1 day we are still together, im going to love her the way i do for now, even i know one day i would end up with a broken heart.. For this time, I never want to regret again.

Today is the first match for open mens 'B' division for AMK. Vs Tanjong Pagar. Even i kept saying "nvm" to my coach and teammates, I still hate the fact that i never get to play. Yea we won.. BUT HOW BORING! ZZZ! Was damn affected by it.. sigh. Guess i had to blame on own for the lack of committment and attendance..

Have to thanks my gf who sat there alone for ard 2 hrs.. P.S THANK YOU! Mwahhhhhhhh. =P

2010-03-29T00:31:00.003+08:00

Aiyo.. My gf fell sick!!! Went to pass to her "Pi Pa Gao" after my work. She looked damn pale and tired.. Sigh.. Heartpain. Just hope that she'll be fine before she go Taiwan..

On my way back, i've realised i haven eat anything since my break at 4pm. Oh my.. My stomach keeps growling. Alright im off~

a note for my GF

2010-03-22T12:33:00.006+08:00

Things have been happening for the past 1 week. Drastic changes. Everything that seems to be great at one moment, seems to be not at the next. Fret not, I didn't regret making my decisions cause i know what im getting and what i wanted.

I didn't know being with me could make you feel that way you are feeling now. All i wanted to do is to make you a happier person. You would never know how i feel when i see you laughing your ass off, pressing against your stomach that kind of laughter. It's just feel great to see how you can laugh like that.

From the beginning, i didn't intend to see a future with you. I thought you were some girls from the club. Didn't occur to me you'll be the one i needed. Then we got together cause i thought the time was right for you. I really believed that you were done with him at that time you see. I thought with me around, it would easier for you for get over with him and i thought you did.

I know we didn't jump into this relationship. At the time, that moment its was what we felt. But you didn't get the break you needed. As much as how i wanted to give you time to sort out your things now, it wouldn't be the same anymore. I'm sorry for that and being bad to you is the last thing i wanted to do. After this week, i also learned the needs to manage you. Even im still new at it, but im trying my best. So you aren't alone k? Im here trying out stuff with you too. *sounds wrong.

Ok. Im going away again in 10 hrs time. I just hope everything will be fine and we'll be just like how we were or maybe more attached to each other. Drink more water and take care of yourself. I love you baby =) And i know you do too.

2010-03-14T21:44:00.002+08:00

Now i finally know how hard can a heart break when merely just a single word or action that your love one did, whether its unintentionally or intentionally, still you'll get affected by it. The worse part is, you feel the heartache.

Someone once told me not to put my 100% into a relationship ever again but i dont believe. I was stubborn enough to believe that how can couple falling in love with each other dont give their 100%? But now i do. I thought what i had gone through was enough. But i was wrong again. I thought i was strong for her, but shes the one who is crushing down.

Many things we cant control and some things, no matter how hard you tried, its always there. The uncertainties and insecurities are always there.

Last paper in SP

2010-03-05T10:25:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was the last paper for my 3 years in SP. This marks the end of my poly-life. Whoa.. time really flies. Suddenly it occurs to me that 3 yrs ago, im only 16 and feeling all eggcited to get into poly. After 3 yrs, i grew up and learnt alot stuff, not only from school, but also the experiences from outside. I felt equally happy and sad at the same time. The happy part is that im finally going to get my diploma and moving on to a next phase of my life and the sad part is that im going to leave my friends and the worst thing is to complete what all guys need to fulfil - NS. *sigh.

To my poly clique: I wish the best for all of you.. Like i said.. 10 years down the road, we do not know what will happen.. But i hope that all of you here have a good future ahead!!! Earn lots of money, get married and most importantly, STAY HEALTHY AND HAPPY!

Went to fly kite at Pasir Ris with my girlfriend and her friends after my paper. Its been so long since i last flew kite. I think its quite fun and challenging to able to make the kite fly. I struggled to fly our spoiled kite and eventually i gave up. lol. Dinner at summer breeze. It was windy and nice. A cool place to relax with bunch of friends or just a simple dinner by the sea between couple. After dinner, we went back to drink at Chun Hien(abby's friend bf) house. Of course, we all had our fun!! =))

Dining at summer breeze is our 1st meal in a restaurant.

2010-02-18T14:05:00.002+08:00

On Tuesday night, i finally decided to drive up to her house and give her the surprise, after my work. It was somehow, interesting? We ended up talking through phone while she was inside the house and i am outside. lol. Just like those movies we watched when the guy sneakily waiting outside the girl's house just to see her or talk to her. She felt bad for not being able to come out of the house cause of her parents. But im kinda anticipated it, and that's why i didn't felt as disappointed.

P.S: Thanks for the email. It was long and sweet though.. and you know i would still do the same thing. =)

Right after that, i went to pick up my mum from her work. Then went to Jalan Kayu to eat maggie goreng with my all time favourite - teh peng! And then home sweet home.

-Random Thoughts-
I wonder why everytime people only learn how to treasure when they start to lose something so dear or close to them. Yes i agree, that in some relationships, maybe after 2 years for instance, the excitement and passion level for each other might not be as good as the first time when they got together. But what about other factors like memories that only belong to them that were so precious or the time once spent together were so great that both didn't even feel like leaving each other at that time? Isn't it the responsible for both parties to put in effort to make things work???

Yea maybe some have tried but things weren't improving. If being together is such a pain for both of them, why isn't it time to let go right? Letting go of a relationship isn't easy. Someone must be brave, that love enough for the other, to let the other go. I've heard about that. But at the same time, i always have a question in mind. "Why do someone like you who loves the other so much didn't know how to treasure at first? Why wait until the point where things weren't able to work out and then chose to let go?"

Sigh.. I think im just blabbing out whats in my thoughts recently.. Studies might have taken a toll on me.. haha. But im studying for the last time before i graduate.. i might not even have the chance to study after 2 years of my NS (prepare for the worst if im unable to go Uni).

driving my family around

2010-02-14T21:29:00.003+08:00

Hi all! Today is the 1st day of CNY!! And is also the 1sy day that im driving my parent around to 'Bai Nian'. My mum was so eggcited abt it.. Can feel that shes proud of her son driving her around.. lol.

Im still considering whether to drive to my sweety's place to give her a surprise tommorrow.. ! =)) stay tuned guys~

-off-

2nd month

2010-02-13T01:05:00.003+08:00

Today was our 2nd month!! haha. Yupp. Finally met my girlfriend after school at Tampines, after seeing her on monday. Watched Valentine's day together. Supposingly today was a parent-meeting session for me, but it was not meant to be i guess, due to some reasons. Yupp.

Spent the night with my girl until the sucky feeling came back again.. sigh.. its another few missing days for us. Cause Chinese New Year is in between and we simply cant meet during that time.. sigh. Just hope that we have more time..

today was a fairytale

2010-02-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

Yes!! 8 Feb'10 the day i passed my driving!!! damn happy!!

Thanks for all the wishings people. There are some people i specially want to thanks for. First of all, thanks my dad for sponsoring the most part of my driving. Thanks my bro - Jickson, who went all the trouble to transfer me money when i needed my $50 - license. Thanks my girlfriend who sitting alone, giving me support and waited for me.

8 Feb'10 - The 100th day ever since i met you.

The way you smile after you read the letter, made me feel happy too. Together, we make new memories.. Isn't it much better than 2nd month or valentine's present?? haha. Alright, i will rest now and as i dream, i'll dream of you babe. =)) Happy 100th day of knowing you!

The stay over

2010-01-31T00:54:00.011+08:00

I know its abit lame to blog it here..

Friday was the first time my girlfriend came to my house and stay over. The feeling is damn nice. Cuddling each other to sleep and early in the morning you wake up and see ur beloved. How warm right??? Yupp this is very common for some people, but this is what i always wanted. Felt so noob about it.. but who cares? I just wanted to type these all down. =)))))

However, the aftermath of staying over eventually led to the sucky feeling. Its like you have been looking forward so much to a holiday, then when the holiday is over, you kinda wish that you are still in the holiday??? Sigh..

Although i'd said that i'll be less busy when my FYP and SP trainings end, but now i realise that im still as busy with my driving, work and most of it, STUDIES!!! Sigh again.. This term has not been so good for me cuz i had skipped too many lessons. Seriously, i want to finish my Poly NOW!!!! Gotta suffer for 1 more month.. =((((

SP basketball & FYP

2010-01-28T15:06:00.002+08:00

WOAH~~~~!!! ITS ALL OVER!!!

This 1 whole year had been doing FYP for Singapore Robotics Games(SRG) 2010 competition. Although we didn't manage to win anything (expected), its still an experience for us too. Through the process, the teacher is more willing to be open and work with us and we made some friends too. Now the only thing that worried us would be our grades i guess.

All the best everyone~!

1st Finals & 1st Runner-Up of IVP 2009/10

2010-01-22T00:09:00.004+08:00

Woah.. Sp managed to get themselves a 1st of runner up of IVP 2009/10. It marks the end of my 3rd yr basketball career for representing SP. Nevertheless, I felt so proud of it, getting into finals.. Never regretted going back training.. Its worthwhile. Wanna thanks JJ and KK for asking me back to training and my new coach, Mr Ong, who never failed to try me even im not playing in my full strength.

In addition, i wanna thanks my girlfriend, for her who always travelling all the way down from TP or Simei to NTU just to support my basketball game, almost every matches, then back home again. Deep down, I really felt damn grateful and appreciated.

P.S: THANKS ALOT BABY! =))

My busy-ness is coming to an end SOON! Next week is SRG competition. Finally FYP is coming to a full-stop. LIKE FINALLY! Gotta do alot of catchup on studies too.. otherwise im dead!

So long guys~!

1 month celebration

2010-01-12T23:43:00.003+08:00

Time passed like a speed of light.. Abby and me were already together for 1 month. Still.. we are in honeymoon period despite of my packed schedule. Im really grateful to her that she is always the one being there for me without any complains.

What had gone through us for this past 1 month is the best days of my life since my last broke up. I never thought i could get any sweet and nice girls around me.. but lucky i did. I found her. Unconsciously, she made me be the way i used to be, doing things that i thought was crazy and of course.. loving her deeper with each passing day..

She had made a record of events, by handwritten and pictures of both of us were pasted in it. Even came to SP to find me from Simei. How can i not love this sweety girl right?? =)

Maybe its my turn to get her something??? hmm planning..

Continuity of insanity

2010-01-09T10:29:00.002+08:00

On thursday, 7/1/10, SP vs SMU, the first match for SP of IVP 09/10. It was good cause of many things..

1. Coach given many chances for me to perform.
2. Team spirit was good.
3. During 3rd quarter of the match, i realised my girlfriend actually standing right at the door, silently supporting me, had a shocked but i like. =)
4. Won them by 20+ points.

It was unexpected for me to play that amount of time, and plus my girlfriend came all the way down from Simei.

P.S: THANKS!! Im falling down hard.. =)

Craziness

2010-01-06T01:47:00.003+08:00

I think im crazy. I used to be the one laughing at people who do those extreme sweet stuff for their girlfriends and all..

Supposingly to go back home after my SP training, which ended around 9.30pm. Rushed myself to bath and started taking train to Simei to look for my girlfriend. Wanted something more to sweeten the suprise visit, my plan was to deliver Macs - double cheeseburger for her. After reaching Simei to realise that East Point dont really hav Macs around.. Headed back on train to tampines for Macs takeaway. Then, finally went to Simei to meet her.

Her tone in phone.. Her expressions when i saw her.. Written all over her face. Shocked and happy. It was fun. It felt good when you finally see your girlfriend smiling and got happy about it. Especially after some family matters and exbf stuff. My late night trip to Simei is really worthwhile, only part is that i did forget about her new curfew - til 11pm. Even when reaching home, the cab fare is more expensive than my usual fare, its still worth the money.. JUST TO SEE YOUR LOVE BEING HAPPY!

A brand new year, a brand new start

2010-01-03T10:20:00.002+08:00

Working morning shift alone now.. So took the free time to blog awhile..

Not sure whether its only me or anybody else.. but i tend to look back on what has it been for me for the past 1 year when a new year starts.. Something like summarising the whole 2009 up and head onto new coming 2010. Conclusion, it had been a good year for me, i guess.. and i bet 2010 is even better.

Spent my new year's eve with Abby and CKJ's gang for new year's steamboat. After which, sneakily got into Abby's house in the middle of the night.. Initially i thought it was thrilling but at the same time, it was quite tiring also.. haha. Seriously, im like a house burglar or something waiting to get caught in no time. Just by thinking of it, it still makes me feel like laughing.. I thought this could be the 1st and last time for me cause its really bad IF i got caught.

For past 2 days, i seems to have no motivation for anything. I got myelf thinking about things like relationship, friendship, schools and basketball. Maybe things had been happening so fast that i couldn't grasp a hold of it, that's why im feeling this way.. Its not really a good feeling. However, this is a brand new year, so i dont think its a good idea to begin a year like that. Should stop this nonsense.. Back to work guys~ See ya!

Christmas celebration

2009-12-28T00:31:00.002+08:00

It had been awesome man. Haha. Met Abby's friends. Christmas dinner with them. The unexpected friendliness from them make me comfortable being around them. Yupp.. Enjoyed my christmas with them.

Drunkard in the house

2009-12-19T02:14:00.002+08:00

Wednesday night was a bang.. CKJ gang got their sweet revenge on me with the killer jug- "Long Island Tea", with extra liquor like redbull volka etc.. Straight after that i flew up high and forgotten how was the rest of the night.. Finally understood the real meaning of "drunk". Luckily i had Jickson and rest of them to take care of me, waking up to realise that im already in Jickson's house. In addition, the hangover was bad.. Really felt thankful of them..

Tonight is the first time of me being able to know how it feels like when your girlfriend/boyfriend went clubbing.. Hmm.. maybe its just me.. but im little worried though. Haha.. As a matter of fact, i did allow my girlfriend to go club.. But shes a girl after all. It is inevitable that i will feel worry?? Isn't it??

Truly can understand why other guys out there dont really like their girlfriend to go club, especially if they know how guys were when they are in club.. but the questions are why not if we really trust our girlfriends enough?? Why not take it like they are truly there enjoying themselves with the music, dance and everything?? I do think that they also need to relax themselves through clubbing and all.. just like guys also..
Hmm alright.. just a random thought that felt a need to type down.. Nothing much seriously.. Bye guys..

End of mst.. Start of new chapter..

2009-12-12T14:24:00.006+08:00

2 weeks of mugging was tiring.. Papers were full of surprises. Aiya.. dont wanna elaborate more abt it.. Anyhow its end of MST!!!!

Taylor Lautner has good body la. Zzz. After watching "New Moon" with Abby, it burns up my fire to train up like him la. Its time to hit some gym and WORK IT OUT!

Btw..

End of the autumn fling and start of a new chapter.. Be it good or bad.. Only fate holds. -12/12/09 -

Actual & Later Celebrations

2009-11-26T23:50:00.005+08:00

Continue..

On 24th Nov..

4). Received a surprise letter from Abby.

5). Abby came all the way from Simei to SP to meet me and we went to Marina Sq.

6). After which, i went to AMK hub to meet my AMK's team for dinner at New York New York. 10 plus people turn out and sang birthday song for me!! =)) After that, the whole went to watch "Raging Phoenix" which i thought was a good show..

On 25th Nov..

7). Jickson brought me to Paris International Buffet restaurant to eat. I think it was the nicest buffet ever..

8). After the buffet, the CKJ gang went to St. James PH to drink.. Initial plan was to make me like a merlion.. but i wasn't even close to that in the end.. So proud of myself!! =)

On 26th, everything becomes back to normal..

Abby's going to Bangkok for 4 days, only coming back at Sun. Going to miss her.. =P

I guess its safe to say that im officially missing you.. - JS cover.

Early Celebrations

2009-11-21T23:27:00.004+08:00

This year's birthday celebrations are so EGG-citing!!

1). Went to watch movie with Abby.

2). Went to phuture with SP team. Was dead drunk thanks to them..

3). Went to Sakura restuarant to have dinner with my relatives and family.. Got few ang baos!!!

There will be more to come!! Stay tuned.. =)

2009-11-14T12:49:00.002+08:00

Hi folks! Well, i haven been updating my blog for 2 weeks.. Seriously, i was busy.

4 weeks had past since school started.. Left 4 weeks before MST. Going to mud like hell again, cuz wasn't been attentive to lectures, tutorials and even skipped some of the practicals. This sem is packed and full of events i could say.. But thinking of my freedom and enjoyment after this sem, i got more motivated.. I gotta hang on there as much as i can, and leave SP with good grades - at least maintain.. haha.

10 days to my 19th birthday! Still counting down.. Anyone wanna prepare some presents for me?? Anything will do.. Pls? Lol. Sounds like im begging for presents and gifts.. Its been long since i can choose presents for myself.. and this year i think i may have the chance!! =)

-Random Story-
A few years back, when i was Sec 3, i knew this guy with the same birthday as i do. He is 7 years older than me. Initially we were just playing street basketball together, but as time went by, we became friend. I would consider him as a close friend. We celebrated our birthday together with friends for 2 consecutive yrs before he got himself ill. He was later diagnosed with cancer in his intestine and it was in the final stage.. After several check ups and surgeries, he didn't managed to pull through. He died on 24th of May 2007. It was the 3rd year that we didn't get to celebrate our birthday together and it became part of me to remember him whenever my birthday is approaching.. Life still goes on.. but memories lived within us.. Deep inside me would choose to think that he went up to heaven to look after us.. and i know he did..

Its already been 2 years, I dont why i typed these out.. but suddenly felt lik doing it..

2009-11-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

A total waste of time preparing for the final demo when at the very last min, our robot's shaft pin broke. Which meant our group did not even perform anything during the final demo after spending 1 week going back to SRG lab almost everyday for fyp.. Zzz..

Spent 2 celebration dinners with 2 different groups of people this week. 1 would be Js and guys.. Due to his birthday on thurs, we celebrated by eating steamboat at Amk central. Another would be my dad's birthday this coming wed. An early celebration. Mum reserved seats at Quality Hotel restaurant for my dad's birthday. Its kindda sweet of my mum tho.

2009-10-25T13:18:00.008+08:00

First week of school was ok. Skipping "1 or 2" lessons if i remember correctly. Or maybe more? lol. Timetable was good tho.

I went back to SP's training and this time i might not want to compete for any positions in the team.. juz wanna go there to learn something. The most exciting thing about the week was i finally got my Sept's pay and i DYED my hair!!! This is the result..

This is last picture taken before my "virgin hair" got dyed.

The 1st picture taken after my "virgin hair" become not virgin anymore.

Rotting

2009-10-17T18:21:00.004+08:00

Its another stay at home, rot-at-home day.. Its a Saturday man.. Zzz.

Anyway, school's reopening like 2 more days? And i still left last sem to go!! Finished this sem and im gone for good.. At the same time, Im still debating whether to go back to SP's trg.. was touched by Kay Kay's sincerity.. but can someone tell me what to do???

Ytd got scammed by my driving instructor as he called to cancel my lesson when im alr on my way to Ubi.. Damn pissed by him, lik wasted my time travelling and my bus fare!!! Stopped at serangoon area, realizing it was near Wei Yee's hse.. So went to his shop and bought thinner for cleaning club.

It brought back memories when i was still in yr 1, staying back, helping out jessie (former president of sports club) to clean the club. That time club was a fun fun fun place to go man.. All people were so bonded they waited for everyone and had dinner together at fc 3. Those were the time man.. Now.. club has changed and people changed also..

alright! shall stopp here.. =)

2009-10-15T16:44:00.002+08:00

Woo Hoo~ Im back from Malaysia!!

The trip was nice, except for the highlights that turned us off. Sunway Lagoon was a total failure, cuz it open daily from Mon-Fri, Public Holis EXCEPT on Tues!!! And it was such a coincidence that we went there on Tues! We were all shocked to realise that the whole theme park is closed for the day as we had totally no idea about it. We all felt disappointed.. GRR!!

We ended up singing their K-box there, then shopping around the mall (beside Sunway Lagoon) for hours. Some bought a few budget clothes while some bought a few accessories. After that we went back to our hotel area and had our best dinner there. Overall, we failed to do what we wanted in the initial plan, but i thought we all bonded well during these times. It was a good experience though.. =)

The enjoying camp and the cruel world

2009-10-11T00:14:00.002+08:00

Raven...... X!!!!!! You ROX!!!!

Our team is the most bonding group man!!

It was fun being camper once again but it was DAMN tiring, although i thought JJ and i weren't like normal camper in our group though. =P It brings back those memories, like im back to freshies-kind, just graduated from sec school being camper.

During the camp, we did alot of stupid stuffs through games, cheerings and etc.. but this is how we bond in times like this isn't it? It made the memories more precious to behold on..

Day 1 - Water Games and etc. As for the night walk, Michelle and i didn't really completed it, as she was literally freak out on the 1st clue station. (Michelle, i know u will be looking on this and its my payback time!! =P) However, as a partner of her night walk and fellow group mate, i didn't really pang seh her.. but at the same time, my words of encouragement didn't really seems to work as well.. sadded..

Day 2 - Algorithm march, games and etc. Got to know more about our group mates through "truth or truth". Haha. Its actually "truth or dare" but since no one would want a dare, we changed it.. At night, it was the SHIM night - a.k.a "Ah Gua night". It was hilarious looking at Rohi (not sure i spelled it correctly) being dressed up like a girl. Lucky i excused myself, if not im gonna be the one turning "Ah Gua" again. lol. Seriously, I had enough of being SHIM man.. but I ended up being SHIM's manager. (-.-)

Right after SHIM's event, it was the disco night.. and again i excused myself to be alone. JJ was accompanying his "dating" person, Li Lin. lol. Not wanting to be extra, I strolled towards sports club, hoping to get a couple of silence to rest my head and wanted to think about things, but saw Leon was half drunk, blabbing stuffs about life, etc.. for 2 hours plus and I ended up sleeping only around 4 plus in the morning.

Day 3 - Break camp. The saddest part of the camp. While we were all gathering at the SB's foyer, waiting to get further instruction for dismissing, a kind of sadness rushed over me. It always happened. It felt so hard to say goodbye.. but life still goes on.. BYE ICE CAMP... X!!!!

Ok back to the cruel world..

Had our last match in Men's Open league. Even though we won tonight, we didn't make it to the 2nd round. It was worth trying.. but its just luck wasn't on our side sometimes. I can say we did our best!!!

Not forgetting that Yuki came down to BAS to support us.. She brought gift from Japan recently and handed it to me. THANKS ALOT!! Had a few words with her even her english is mixed with her Jap accent, i still felt that shes really a kind and cute person.. Theres alot of green envious eyes looking at us.. haha.

Super looking forward to go KL on mon. Especially going together with friends!! Will be away from 12th to 14th. Its going to be AWESOME!! Too bad brooks sprained his ankle.. and the chances of him going, i think it will be quite small.. but its ok!! We'll help him enjoy instead!! lol.

Ok.. i'll stop here. Such a wordy post.. lol. Im working morning shift tml but now its 2am in the morning!!! Gonna get some sleep!! Take care. BYE!~

2009-09-30T13:38:00.003+08:00

Finally an off day for me. Been a long time since i can wake up at 1pm in the afternoon and do things in my own pace. At times, i prefer a quiet environment, slow down abit and think about how things are going on in my life. And I bet everyone do right?

Work is ok for me, as there isn't much to do except for long standing hours. Eventually when there is no business, you get tired and your mind started to lose concentration (mostly stoning there while mind wondering off to somewhere), etc.

Yesterday, driving was bad. Wasn't able to stay focus cuz of the stupid radio, telling a life story of a NBA player. Didn't really remember much of the details but kena scolded by the instructor. Just imagined i was half listening to the radio and half listening to the instructor? HOW DANGEROUS! Next time i would want to request to the instructor to OFF the radio.

In anyway, i feel my blog is a little too dim/dark or whatever, make people think that im such an emo guy. But in fact, i wasn't, if you know me better. Will change it if i find the time.

So that's all folks, bye~

1st match

2009-09-24T00:54:00.006+08:00

Yeah! Won the first match. And 3 matches to go.. Didn't really perform good, but i will buck up!

Guess my job is taking a part of my life away.. Because of it, i had to skip trainings.. And i felt bad cuz i did not really put in as much affort for this competition as compared to Milo cup's U19. Blame myself for poor time management.. =(

Oh ya.. today is my beloved mum's birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!! If you all realized, my mum's birthday got the same date as as mine!! Such conincidence!! lol.

2009-09-22T21:43:00.002+08:00

Consecutive working for 3 days is a killer. Legs got tired, eyes got dried. After break, the hardest part is to stay awake. Carbo working in your stomach, making you feel sleepy. Anyone with good suggestions where i can take a little nap in Taka?

Its my off day today and tml will be our 1st match of Wai wei. Stay calm and have composure. This is what im telling myself.

Updates

2009-09-17T23:32:00.005+08:00

My current life updates..

Managed to get a job at CK's Jeans - Taka. Saturday will be my first day of work.

Competitions are round the corners and i hope we will do better this time.

FYP is going to have a final demo and will be in SPINNOVEX in no time.

I guess i will have a hectic schedule ahead.. Just pray that im able to pull through these stuffs and still be alive..

The Thailand Trip

2009-09-13T21:20:00.009+08:00

Photos captured during our rocking climbing day!!

Begin climbing!

Reached the tree bushes, see me?

Came down like a man =D

Our guider, Su.

Our climb at Railey Island!

Last photo at Phuket airport. Im outcast!!!

Start of a driving journey

2009-09-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

Fell sick yesterday. Running nose and non-stop coughing are IRRITATING!! Hate the feeling of being weak. =(((

Despite of the illness, I still passed my BTT and officially can get a PDL for driving. *Whoo. Yet, i still have a long way to go.. *A lesson learnt - Never take BTT/FTT during exams period, cant concentrate*

Anyway, today is both my ex-basektball teammates' birthday,Yaonan and Richard. So wish u all a happy 19th birthday!! All the best!! =D

2009-09-10T12:13:00.000+08:00

Hey! I'm Back!

Decided to cut short for everything to 1 phrase.. it was "as smooth as TOFU". haha.

Firstly, we got the chance to sit the more expensive seats of the tiger airway, while we just have to pay the normal price, like $5?(is back and forth) Secondly, while we were driving to Ao-nang(Krabi), we almost lost our way many times, but still we made the right decision many times. Lastly, the weather is so good during our stay there, except for the last day, it rained heavily while we were heading back to the airport. Pictures aren't out yet.. Stay tuned. =P

a sobering thought

2009-09-05T03:38:00.006+08:00

Just came back from Alvina and Sherilyn's farewell and bithday party. Had a few drinks but still sober. Had fun there. Alvina will be going to US for 6 months.. Kind of sad just by thinking of it, but will miss her.. and our "cousins' meeting". BYE ALVINA!!!

After a few more hours and i'll be heading to Phuket for 4 days! Kind of excited though. With the accompany of ChenYe, Gaston, and Marcus, I think it will be fun too. Thanks to Shifu, who told me there will be another tsunami coming.. I prayed hard that this is only a rumour, even though I think it's quite impossible. But shit happens.. Who knows?

The last house on left

2009-09-01T22:08:00.005+08:00

Went to watch this movie, "The Last House On Left". Really bored.

Exam is OVER!!!

2009-08-31T23:43:00.002+08:00

Woah. This few weeks have been staying at home mugging, doing the same routine with different modules to clear and finally its over!

TIME TO PARTY!!!

Plus, Im really looking forward to this HOLI!

Since im not representing for SP team anymore, it means i got more time for myself. Will want to make use of this time to work and earn money!! Still in the progress of looking for jobs, anyone with good intro? Requirement is simple.. Work is easy, Pay is good, Flexible time.. Not hard right?

Oh ya, not forgetting my long time no-touch FYP! Just by typing these 3 letter words make me sian 1/2 liao, so u can imagine HOW SIAN it is, but no choice.

2009-08-29T00:25:00.005+08:00

Damn sad.. I failed my BTT afterall.. F***! I thought it was really easy and the worst thing is i dont even know where did i got wrong.. Man.. Really spoiled my mood for the rest of the day.. Need to wait for another 2 more weeks. =(

Dinner at BAS's coffeeshop, celebrating ShingChoon's birthday then went geylang for durian. Eventually, home. *Sign.. Still have 1 more paper to go.. Got no motivation to start. Exam period suck big time!!

2009-08-19T20:49:00.004+08:00

Exams!!!

Next mon will be my 1st paper. Followed by thursday( 2 papers), and FRIDAY (BTT).. haha. Hopefully can pass it once..

Been feeling unwell since monday.. On the verge of falling sick.. But i still have many things yet to study.. =( *Telling myself not to fall sick.. This is truly "Headache, Heart no strength, Pocket no money"

I want to do well for this sem cuz the result will be sent to Uni.

And pray my GPA dont drop as much..

2009-08-08T12:52:00.007+08:00

Alright. POL-ITE ended.

Well.. We lost to NYP by 8 points, as expected.. And this match marked the last game that i would be having as a representative of SP. Recounting all the trainings and hardships that i'd been through, it was still an experience whether it was good or bad..

P/S : Not sure who or anyone of you can see this, but I hope the rest of you can put in effort in the upcoming IVP.

Anyway, despite of the "little" playing time that i had, i appeared in redsport!! *lol.

Wa.. This guy jumped so high.. Im already boxing him out!!!

Good steal.. No. 6, that one call face?

Would that be a good pass??

If this pic is clearer, i whld put it on my wallpaper!!!

Of course these 2 are not from redsport.. The quality is so much diffirent.. A friend of mine shot it.. (Many thanks to you and you took the trouble to upload it on FB)

2009-08-07T00:04:00.003+08:00

POL-ITE UPDATES..
Ever since we lost to RP, we are in a losing streak.. Straight lost to TP and ITE.. Coming up next will be NYP.. Not sure whether can win.. But sadly, this year SP will be the last in POL-ITE.. =(

During this 1 week, things had been happening..

2009-07-31T01:59:00.003+08:00

POL-ITE cup has started.

Instead of playing the 1st match against NP, i was warming the bench the whole time, watching them performing. Felt damn angry and down. Part of the reason is because i thought i am able to play, another is because theres someone came all the way from SP to support me.. and i disappointed her i think.. zzz

Today 2nd match against RP. She was unable to come and watch me play.. A little disappointing.. While thinking this, i also cant guranteed her that i can get to play.. But I was shocked to play the starting 5 today. However, its only the nice 5-6 mins.. I thought i did well and get to play even much more time and i was wrong.. Totally..

We ended up losing RP 3 points..

2009-07-27T00:29:00.002+08:00

Ok. Got back from AMK Youth's chalet this noon. It was more fun than i expected and i wished every1 had their fun t00. Few photos had uploaded through facebook by Ys.

Had a nap before playing the final of Yeo Cheow Tong's Cup, against Yew Tee Csc. Lost. Nothing much actually cause din even got to play much. Zzz.

Right after the match, Lao Lao, JJ and me rushed to BAS to watch U19's Finals. It was Tagawa Vs MinYi. An exciting match. MinYi was giving out warm-up Tees and we got Alfi to help us reserved. *lol - Cheated.

Instead of MinYi leading, Tagawa overwhelmed them and led the score board until the 3rd quarter. But in the end, MinYi managed to recover the lost points and won over the championship. The intensity was really tough.

This made me starts to wonder whether i was capable of playing these games.. I really admired them for being able to perform under this circumstances. How i wish i can play until this level..

2009-07-23T00:26:00.002+08:00

I was quite lucky to have tickets for Kobe Bryant Asia Tour at S'pore Indoor Stadium today, thanks to Lao Lao. Kobe displayed some drills on defense and 2 of his signature moves to everyone before he ends night in S'pore Stadium.

Overall, it was considered not bad. Picked up some things along the way and might be good for one.

2009-07-20T01:00:00.002+08:00

Been a while since i last blogged.. lol.
Erm.. Its basketball again of cuz.. I dont have girls for me to blog about anyway.. =P

Recently, SP is having this Yeo Cheow Tong's Cup held in Yew Tee. All the teams in the league are very skillful and experience. We are no match for them, except what we have is strength and speed. Although im not as good as others, i still felt very privileged to able to play against these strong and old teams, because i thought i could learn some experience from it.. and i did. I even get to play with Micheal Wong and that is enough man.. *woah!

Ok. I played 3on3 with JJ and Alfi also. Won the 1st prize and got $100 in our pocket each. This is the 1st time i'd ever won a 3on3 competition and the attractive prizes.. sound pathetic right?
Upcoming next will be POL-ITE.. Fixtures are out.. and i think this might be the last time im playing for SP. Dont ask why..

Alright.. enough of basketball.. AMK Youth will be having a chalet! - On this coming friday. Thanks to John, i think this team is growing.. but it still need more to time.. We are becoming more like a team now.. On wed, my FYP is finally having its 1st demo infront of some directors.. That means we are going to show something while we have none.. Jialat!!!

Its getting late.. Im off~ bye..

2009-06-30T00:33:00.002+08:00

Can anyone just tell me what F*** is wrong with me during the deciding match, where ALL my teammates were doing their best while im there doing things that i cant even remember much now???

Yea.. We lost against Eng Tat Hornets. Im very vex and upset now. I felt as if theres a bomb in me ready to explode in anytime. I felt the blame was on me because i never manage to bring up the team. And as a matter of fact, not only did i never able to perform.. I PLAYED BADLY!!

Everyone was telling me that im just off-form today.. but WHY IT HAS TO BE TODAY??? I really cant understand why i just cant forcus on that game just now..

P.S. Im sorry guys.. especially the one that trusted me the most, John, my coach.. I'd let you down..

Guess I just need time to be alone..

2009-06-23T17:20:00.002+08:00

Good news.

I have no kidney problems! I'm so thrilled when i heard the doctor said that.. No more blood in urine.. Whoo!

2009-06-22T01:32:00.003+08:00

Won against MI. Trash them like 50 points.. However its not that we are good, the thing is they are lousy.. Everyone managed to have a chance to play.. Next will be Eng Tat Hornets and it will be a deciding game..

Yesterday we went to Sentosa for Ys's event. Stayed around, visiting Sentosa rather than playing ball on the beach.. In fact, we did some camwhoring..

"My Classic Face"

Ok.. Left last week to school reopen and my revision still haven started yet.. I shall start tml.. A reminder to myself.

2009-06-19T14:26:00.003+08:00

What's happening to me??

3 days ago.. i was hit by a teammate during SP training. His teeth hit on my ear and next thing i know, i was bleeding. I visited the hospital because of this incident..

Yesterday, I went to wash up after SP training and realised there was blood in my urine. Its not just abit.. but its whole lot more. Its like im peeing with a mixture of blood and urine. I was startled.. This is the 1st time i'd seen something like this and its really bothering me..

2009-06-16T13:20:00.002+08:00

Whoo.. Ytd had our 2nd match with MinYi. Even we'd lost, i thought we did our best.. I knew i didn't manage to score as much as people expected me to be, but i will try harder next time to make it possible. Hl really played well last night. And im grateful for that.. its no longer a team that depends on me most of the time.. This feeling really bring back memories..

2009-06-06T00:21:00.002+08:00

Had our 1st game in Milo Cup. Won. But not to the fullest. We can play better than that.. I had foul problems and this resulted for holding the score up close. Had to say sorry for the team. Whatever so, more intensity is coming on for the next game..

2009-05-22T01:24:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was interesting. Went to Jurong Point after school with JianYong, ChengSiang and WeeKian to search for their FYP mouses. After purchasing their mouses and WK's black Everlast bag, we went to Starbuck for drinks. Its WK's treat.

While we were chatting away and blog hopping through other's blog in CS's lappy, a 3 yr old little girl wearing in yellow came over. Initially she poked my butt through the gap of the chair using her toy and i was startled for tt moment, thinking someone had accidentally touched my butt. Then she became more and more excited.. she started playing with us.. and eventually she became one of us.. The werid part was her mum and her grandma were both sitting 1 table next to us.. but did nothing to stop her. haha. Seeing her so cute.. we took a couple of pictures too.. Btw, she said her name is "Wu Hui Juan".

2009-05-16T21:58:00.002+08:00

Oh ya. i haven't mention abt my shooting for Teens magazine ytd. Stayed back after FYP for 2 hrs of shooting. I felt both exciting and embarrassing. Initially was planned on basketball court but as the rain came, we switched to the corridor outside Sports Hall. Its damn embarrassing cuz pple were walking along the corridor and i have to pose for the shooting.

There were 2 sets of clothing. One was basketball outfit and the other was a sweater with 2 GAP t-shirts. I think the most difficult part of the shooting would be the crowd.. becuz its hard to restrict the students from walking past the corridor.. Overall, i think its a privileged to experience things like this..

2009-05-08T15:20:00.002+08:00

Had friendly with Home U Division 1 - Girl's Team. After playing 2 hrs and we ended up with the score of 15O+ pts to 120+ pts.. We won.. I believed it was a good experience for everyone and this is also the 1st time im using my passport for friendly.. LOL

2009-04-25T01:31:00.002+08:00

Maybe we were friends, maybe we were more, maybe its just my imagination. But i see you stare just a little too long and that it makes me start to wonder..

Lol. Just being random.. I shall wait for the right one, just like someone had said it..

2009-04-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

Somehow i realise that it feels bad to be rejected by someone especially it hit ur heart without a word unknowingly. OR one that spoken a lie where u noe its a lame excuse for he or she to avoid themself frm u. i bet that it really feels not good.

2009-04-17T23:44:00.002+08:00

7 weeks of ITP had comes to an end. What comes next will be a new school term.
Its going to be boring.. =((

2009-03-20T09:58:00.008+08:00

Back from Hong Kong been quite awhile now. Missed the fun we had in Hong Kong. For the first time i went overseas with my fellow members from basketball and we played 1 game against Hong Kong Polytechnic University. Yeah, we lost against them but did not take it to heart. In fact, what we cared most were our shopping time etc. *lol.

Coincidentally, the day when we were flying to Hong Kong, we actually saw JJ Lin. And later in Hong Kong, he was checking out his luggage with us. In a closer look, he actually looks chubbier and not as tall as i imagined.

Apart from that, i saw my secondary school teachers and saw Jeanette Aw when we were half way shopping. Unintentionally, I shouted her name and said 'hi' to her. She smiled back to me and said 'hi'. This happened in a natural sequence as if i was saying the same thing to a friend. It was hilarious where all my friends thought i actually know her personally. *haha. I shall say no more and allow my pictures to do the talking..

Reached HK's airport..

When playing against HK Poly Uni..

Went to one of the tourist's attraction beach.. (but too bad no one sun bath there =X)

Solo with the beach..

Met Jay Zhou while shopping too.. (not bad right? So real.. actually went to Wax museum.. )

Heading toward HK's airport on the last day. This is the Green Horse Brigde("Qing Ma Da Qiao")

Going back to Singapore.. In the airport liao..

Alright.. Actually got alot more photos, but too lazy to wait for the uploadings.

Yea.. Time flies while we were enjoying our lifes in HK. Its all about shopping and eating. The food there is nice and there are lot of shopping mall and etc.. When im on the flight coming back to Singapore, suddenly i thought of a quote that was from the movie "The curious case of Benjamin Button".

Quoted : It's a funny thing about comin' home. It looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed is you..

2009-02-25T01:27:00.003+08:00

Haven't been blogging for quite some time.. Lots of things happened. But im just too lazy to blog.

It's been a stressful week for me, cuz of the semester exam. But today was the last day of my paper and it marks the end of my 2nd year. I wonder how time flies..

Coming up next, will be my ITP, starting from the following monday. This means that i do not have a semester break . -.- Some of my friends are also going for Overseas' ITP too.. And im hereby to wish them to have a safety and enjoyable trip!!!

Hopefully, 2009/10 will be a better year for my last year in poly.

2009-01-28T02:03:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!

2009-01-12T00:41:00.003+08:00

Woohoo. Been a while now. Lot of things happened.

Drinking for 2 consecutive weekends. First was dead drunk. Second was good.

Went to club at rebel for the first time and it was no good. No crowd no girls.

CNY is coming soon but ain't got the money to buy any clothes.

SAD YEAR!

2008-12-29T00:24:00.004+08:00

Oh man. Here comes the boring school days again.

Have to face those non-stop projects, lab tests and assignments again.

Cant breathed.

2008-12-24T00:59:00.002+08:00

After 2 years since i last went back to YCKSS's basketball court.. Brings back alot of memories..

There was a so-called basketball gathering. We played against our junior(B boys). Unfortunely, i sprained my pinky finger. Swollen like a pig's tail.

Went novena to have vegetarian buffet.

Then, friendly match against Tong Whye Temple. Considered as a lost..

IVP is coming soon.. But im still not ready..

2008-12-15T12:44:00.003+08:00

Came back to Singapore yesterday morning.

Throughout the trip, half the time we were spending on, was traveling. The time we spent on activities were only a day or a half. The rest of the time would be eating.. more eating and even more eating!!! *lol.

Overall, the trip was good. Banana boat was fun. I even learnt how to drive there!!! Omg.. im so wanna get my licence NOW!!! All of us bonded. Especially the night where we bought alcohol and chilled out.

2008-12-10T03:21:00.002+08:00

Just a few more hours and i'll be on my way to malaysia to enjoy life!!!

MALAYSIA HERE I COME!!!!

2008-12-07T12:30:00.003+08:00

Recently just watched "海角七号". Its not too bad. Songs were nice.

And furthermore is a movie that received a numbers of Golden Horse Awards.

2008-12-06T14:50:00.001+08:00

Finally 1 week of MST is over, while 3 weeks of break is coming..

2008-11-24T22:36:00.004+08:00

TODAY is the day when Hao Wei becomes 18 years old. He is finally LEGALISED!!!

Thank you for all the wishes.. those are the minor things that count..