Did we really make a mistake for being together???

We met in a place where i least expected to be. We ended up liking each other where i least expected it to be. Was it really a delusion or am i just blinded by love??? I never thought i would put my real feelings into this.. but i did. I thought i was like before but there was something in you made me believed in this world, there's still something like love. You clearly showed me how you can truly love a person when indeed, you did. When i asked for you, i was confident with what i had. But situations just proved me wrong, time after time.

Nothing particular happened. Just felt need to say out something. You are different from many girls that i'd met. Seriously, I really have no idea why im so into you. At some point of time, i did hold myself back to remind myself again. I even hold myself from saying "i miss you", 3 simpler words than "i love you". It makes me wonder if you are thinking why i miss you so much even we met just recently.. Its weird for me to even think of that..

However, I just dont know why i always expected more nowadays. It was wrong for me. I told myself the day when im with you that i shouldn't be expecting, plus this situation is already there when i even got together with you, even more so i shldn't feel like that. At the beginning, i was passive to everything cuz i think you need more comfort. Not saying you are weak, i just think i should be more understanding and i really want you to be a happier person. But now, im becoming more like what i am. I dont know whether its good or bad but thats how i've changed.


There are alot of things i still haven do with you yet. And i always feel that time is running out.. Im not sure its because of my enlistment that make me feel this way or is it just a feeling to complete something together with you??? I know we are putting our main problems aside and be happy together. But it doesn't mean what we are having now are all in pretence. Its not a show. UGHHH!~ i dont know what im pointing on anymore. Just confused.

sigh just random thoughts that needed to say out.. nothing much.
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